November 1, 2013
Dear MarMar,
I know you don’t need another mother, but it has not been easy
trying to figure out what my relationship with you should be. It hurts when you look me in the eye and
lie. And when you found out that it did,
I think you hurt too. You have been
vague ever since, and I have let you be.
I spent hours worrying if you would come home safe, hoping you
would not get behind the wheel under the influence of something that would
bring harm to you or someone else. I have wrestled with what kind of life I
would allow you to leave while under our roof, whether you were taking
advantage of me, wanting to escape accountability.
But I also know that you probably felt hurt, hurt that I could
not trust you, hurt that I assumed maybe you were acting self-destructively
when perhaps you were not. Please know
that it was only because I care for you so deeply. I want to spare you the pain and to cut the
chains and set you free, but it’s really not my job.
With much love,
Paula
No comments:
Post a Comment